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for my first entries, the newest stuff is on the bottom, just cause i posted it like that. 'kay?

11th grade english

inability to concentrate
originality has ceased
but only here
no sympathy for the imaginative soul
praise for the idiotic
ideas are freed from me
thoughts have escaped
the improper spreads faster than an epidemic
barbaric things own this place
and the intelligence has fled the world

for now

finally i've realized who is true
and it's finally making my life so much
better than it was before
but i can't ignore that you're still there
somewhere distant from my reality
and oblivious to everything that goes on
cause you just don't care, cause you're not there
and i'm done waiting for you
i'm tired of making the moves
but nothing progresses,
its so pathetic
so i want you to know,
it's all over, for now.

merry go round

around again we go
the problems of our past disappear
on this magical thing
the obstacles soon to come, forgotten.
this short sensation is like no other
and being with you only makes it better
this time is worth more than every penny in the world
i could never pass the opportunity
this time, i choose one
next time, i'll choose another
by the end, we'll have had them all
the horse makes our worries die
the music brings us to our present jubilee
nothing will ever be the same
while we're on the merry go round

to be with you

i want to know you
and drown in your warmth
it feels like its been years
and only time can tell us where to go
but time has no motion
while we're here
and the lights are so blinding
your love is so binding
and i feel the need of your arms
your presence slowly suffocates me
as i drown in your warmth
and your air tightens my lungs
if i died today, forever i'd be happy to be with you.

give to get

i never had a single doubt about you
til i figured out that
you gave up before trying
i wonder why you'd be so cruel
but i remember your similarity to the last one
so i've thought about giving it another try
but why should i hurt myself like that?
why give your all when you've got nothing?
sometimes i wish on stars
but i've found those stars to be
black holes cause i keep getting the worst of luck
i gave up not too long ago
i'm not proud of it but what else is there to do
when you've given your all while you've got nothing?
why waste another breath when i could use it
on someone who truly cares
its too bad you're a fraud

with each step

my dreams are finally coming true
your soul is just as beautiful as
mine should be
but i think you
might be moving too fast

my countenance grows miserable

as you tell me another lie
believing every word
that flows from your lips
my excitement grows weary
as the lights go dim
they tell me caution
but i still go forward
with each kiss
i fall deeper in this cave of lust
i failed for you
but all you can do is
break my heart a little more
with each step.

pittsburgh

the music of the night drowns slowly away
the noise of the crowded festival
the dancing on the broken souls
the silence of the people
the sunset is the first sign of calm
the brutal traffic of the newly deserted highways
with no surprise, the city is turning cold
the home is a place to mourn
how luxurious this place used to be
now all we listen to is the taunts of
how miniscule it has become
instead of climbing the mountain to a greater height,
some strange monster has pushed us down to nothing.